What we are learning on this adventure
Sunday, August 10th, 2008Thoughts from Pat
This trip gives us all something that we rarely have in life time, Time to think and time to reflect, time to listen and time to discuss. So much of life is spent running that we never take time because there is too much to do, we have to be some where we have to get something done, I can’t stop now. More on this in a different blog.
We also are having the opportunity to face our own fears. A voyage like this in a very small boat in a very large ocean with lots of electrical and mechanical issues gives cause for much thought. When you spend days out at sea with no sight of land, fears arise in our hearts some spoken many silent. We are facing icebergs that are gianormous some as large as city blocks! We have been next to some icebergs hundreds of feet high and where only 10% is above water the actual size is beyond our imagination. We have ventured into thick ice where if in the wrong place it could crush this tiny boat, we have been in places where there was ice thick and seemingly impassable for as far as binoculars could see to the horizon! Even the most experienced among us have doubts. As there was one system failure after the other everyone at some moment doubted the wisdom of continuing on. We were forced to face our fears.
Four people living in a very small space also brings out lots of dynamics. We are all different and think differently. Really facing our fears where we have few alternatives is very rare, in most of our lives we have lots of options and we are insulated from the worst of our fears. If you are reading this internet blog, you like me are already unique to most people in the world. In my world I rarely am forced to face my fears like I have been on this voyage. I belong to a men’s community where weekly we gather to share, give insight and occasionally poke each other in the places where our fears reside, where others can see our “stuff” in a way in which we are either we can’t see or are unwilling to see and we are in denial. Even there in an atmosphere of trust and transparency we rarely encounter the kind of moments we face here. Here aboard the Geraldine we don’t have the luxury of sticking our heads in the sand, decisions have to be made that have potential life or death implications. What is the right choice? Do we pursue the dream or do we seek safety and security? At what risk do we proceed? What else can go wrong? These and many more questions face us constantly. The safety of the crew is of utmost importance so it is always of paramount priority in all decisions. We pray always for the wisdom to take the wise action, but also to fulfill the mission. Balancing those two requires all of us to face our fears. God has been faithful to his promise which is the banner of the www.mvgeraldine.com blog. “He will be with us and watch over us everywhere we go.” Can we really believe that? He has shown us many signs to encourage us. We have seen His faithfulness. He has shown us rainbows in the air, pillars of fire on the horizon, friends along the way who have been divine appointments. We are trusting Him and His faithfulness and we are trusting Him to continue to shelter us in His hand as we turn North, or as Walt said “South to Alaska.”